This morning I finished the final week of a 4-week rowing competition. This was my first masters level event and it had been over a year since I competed at a competitive level. Going into it I wanted to do it for fun and then I saw how well I was doing and my game face came on. Each week the workouts naturally got harder and not only pushed me physically but mentally. I found myself each week trying to push through that pain threshold and push myself harder and faster.
Leading up to the last row today I had not been sleeping well and so my energy systems were off. I got a few nights of good sleep over the weekend but it just wasn’t enough to give me what I needed to get to do as well as I wanted to. My goal was to finish in the top 50 and I finished at 52 out of 181 masters women. Half of my placements were in the 90’s and 100’s and the other half were in the top 20, plus I had one event I took 1st place on! All in all I am happy that I did the competition and I enjoyed the events even though at times I never thought it would end, like today.
One thing I took from this event is I need to work on my mental game and getting out of my head. While I have made some great improvements on this, I still have a long way to go. I am not sure what it is that is holding me back and not allowing myself to go fully “balls to the wall”. I know part of it will just come with time…..but what is the other part?!